I’ve recently become rather enamoured with Emma Stone. She’s very funny, and really beautiful too. Always a good combination.
Expect to see more of her on here.
A Week Until 20 (Copied from Blog)
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently. I turn 20 in 1 week, so yeah, that constitutes a reason to start reflecting on what has happened in my life so far.
The answer is a fair bit:
Gaining friends, losing friends, moving, discovery of what interests me, a broken heart, and death to name a few.
A lot of my life has revolved around moving to different places every few years. When I was younger, I hated doing it. I didn’t want to leave my friends; would I make new friends I kept asking myself? Now the only thing I don’t like about it is picking up and setting down furniture.
Sure, it does suck leaving friends, especially those whose company I enjoyed. But over the years, for some friendships, moving has solidified the connection I share with them.
Take my friends in Southampton for example. When I first left them 6 years ago, I thought I might never see them again. Such is the life of a then 13 year old. But over the years, mainly through the rise of social networking, I got back in touch with them. This helped me decide that I would rather go to college with them, than commute to a Cambridge college where I didn’t know anyone at all. I re-connected with them for 2 years at college, and then proceeded to leave them again to live where I currently am now. I’m hoping to have a few of them over in a few weeks, which I’m really looking forward to. The friends of mine I have, and who have kept in contact with me, are ones I will treasure for a long time.
Moving is also one of the reasons I am currently not in a relationship. That broken heart I mentioned? That, together with the deaths of my Grandma, and Nan, meant I wasn’t happy for a while. Oddly enough, it took the death of my Granddad, and an extraordinary coincidence of my Grandma’s ashes being in the place where we lay my Granddad’s ashes, a year on, to get me back on my feet.
By the way, holding my Granddad’s ashes, which were still warm, scattering them, and having a glass of bubbly, is one of most surrealist moments of my life. Hasn’t been topped in the 3 years since, and I’m not sure if it ever will. But you never know
Which leads me onto another point: My family, which has always been a constant in my life, particularly my mum, dad and brother, and also my (very large!) extended family. I feel incredibly lucky that I have such a strong, cohesive family structure, in that we all get along. I know so many people who don’t have the kind of family ties I have, and I find it sad. I’ve enjoyed so many great moments with many members of my family, on holidays (New York, Florida, France), to family gatherings and events.
So as I enter my third decade, I look back on these moments, and sometimes feel old, and then I think of Yellowcard (one of my favourite bands), and think about some lyrics in one of their most recent songs:
This makes me look forward to what is coming in my life. The moments of joy, and anguish, that I’ll experience. I say: Bring it.